Time for Priorities

This last term of my junior year is becoming increasingly stressful. With my focus divided between looking for colleges, doing my schoolwork, and doing it well, as well as my tennis season, life is kind of crazy for me. I have always been the kind of person who would stress out about the smallest things, such as, my shoes don't match my outfit...AHHHHH. This would be funny if it wasn't the truth. Right now i can't seem to handle the multitude of pressures facing me in my daily life, as well as sleep and eat. I am forced to make choices and set priorities.

"Priorities" is a dreaded word in my vocabulary. It means making decisions and putting things in order of importance. It also means that sometimes i don't always get every thing done. This is the worst feeling in the world. I have a terrible time of walking into a classroom or stepping onto the court knowing that i have not properly prepared for whatever i have been asked to do. Though i hate this feeling, i have many other important things to consider. Things that go beyond the spring term and even beyond high school.

College, in general, is perhaps the biggest stressor in my life. It is always in the back of my mind, and i can't help but think about the implications of my actions and decisions in terms of college. Almost everything i do in school is related to my post-secondary education and every shortcoming is seen as limiting my chances of getting into my number one college choice. I understand the craziness of this thinking, and yet, it still bothers me on a daily basis. Everything i am doing, everything i am working on, every homework assignment is getting me one step closer to my future at a university or college, and that takes me one step closer to my dreams.

I can't seem to escape stress and i can't seem to beat it, so i will continue to live with it. I have for many years, and i only anticipate it getting worse. However, if the stress is what drives me and keeps me going then it is all right with me. I will decide on what is important and make priorities. I will deal with the stress from this term in the most productive way i can, but that doesn't mean i can't count the days until summer vacation...does it?